eluded
by a kiss goodnight
but not
by my desire
it’s become
my undoing
the more
i push away
the harder
i fall
i’m afraid
that one day
i wont be able
to pick myself up
off the ground
that my desire
will become a fantasy
that my demons
will succeed
in painting
my heart
black
i wanna live
i wanna love
but
i don’t know how
all i know
is my fear
and it scares me
to death.
